glad you came (:

The sun goes down, the stars come out,
And all that counts is here and now,
My universe will never be the same,
I'm glad you came.

I'm really glad to have awesome flight members and friends in airwing accompanying me on this journey, so much so that i really look forward to the week ahead though i know well of what's ahead of me in the week. i suppose while my previous post's resolution was for myself to take the coming days in a more positive light, i did fail and succeed in certain ways - succeeding in the sense that i managed to rejoin trainings (finally!) after a whole two week of being pulled out due to my cough, failing in the sense that i succumbed to the emo bug after a whole week of trying to be strong. oh wells. i suppose i'm human after all? but through this i'm really glad that there are people around me whom i can joke with and laugh with, who make my day a whole lot brighter and happier (:

my awesome buddy who is mostly asleep by the time i come back into the bunk, who injects joy into everyday (:

FLIGHT 1! terrible image quality but well, the guys whose antics and jokes make me look forward to everyday :D

air wing girls! (minus perly and rachel who left for sierra D:) the girls who i come 'home' to at level 4 every night, who are there to share stories and all kinds of nonsense in the strangest of scenarios (:

and of course there are those other few people like jy, clarence, delwyn, winston and others who make my days in airwing a whole lot more colourful.. who drive me to stay awake to finish up my tasks and still wake up in time for routine exercises. (:

i'm really glad you came (:

on a side note - 
my dad recently aquired an olympus epl2! (: sweet piece of camera which he didn't really know how to use in japan (what a waste! D:) was playing around with the camera and here's what came out..

that's all for now (:

Let's pretend we don't exist

that's exactly what i feel like doing.. but i've got so much to do and so little time! not to mention that my beloved section 2's outing is coming right up and i gotta leave the house soon..

rah. the past week in camp hasn't been a really positive one, and i hope to change that next week.. finally cleared exam 1 yesterday and whew. studying never felt so tedious before.. it just felt like the mad rush for promos all over again - lest the different group of people around me.. was pretty down with that cough in the past week, which hasn't gone away though i've consumed the whole bottle of medicine prescribed to me by the doctor. ): missed quite a number of physical trainings due to attend b and i hope that i can keep up with the training tempo in the weeks to come ): rahhh.

i wanna make my life more positive;

clarity, peace, serenity;

i honestly don't want to care anymore.

self.

i just want to run away from the world.

drowning

 i have no idea what i'm doing now, i feel like just fading away, just drowning in nothingness. in fact, that's probably what i am now - nothing. i cause people pain, i cause people anxiety, i cause people hurt. that's all i do. i'm a hindrance to others, causing nothing but stress.. i just want to..

Green Again

END OF BLOCK LEAVE! D:

 oh noes. it's gonna be back into the green again next week and i'm pretty unprepared for it ): even my duffel bag isn't packed up yet..

the iconic 24km (okay scam it was more like 27km) route march kinda left me wondering where my body limits are. from epic things like falling into a hole at the side of the path, to puking out acid and holding my pee for 4km of the march, i really wonder how i managed to tank through the whole march, and even end up being slightly high on the last few km of the route. anywhoo. thank you people who came down for my POP! dear, fariz, maira, fiona, jiale, acey and my fantastic parents who waited for me to finish taking photos with everyone! :D you awesome people were kinda my motivation to complete the thing when i was struggling, when my abrasions were terrible, when my feet ached and i felt like puking.. thank you so much for helping me complete this (:

the past week has been pretty eventful! finally got my drivers' licence YAY. and i've been driving almost everywhere since.. =/ ahaha. still remember my first few lessons when i felt emo after my car stalled 2187316283 times.. man, that felt so long ago.. now driving makes me feel like a boss! whee. and i'm gonna be devoid of that for the coming 3 weeks. booo.

nuff said, time for some peektures!

Holes Inside

If you hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light. 
Oh cos sometimes, fate and your dreams will collide


this has got to be my favourite song at this moment in time (:

supposed to be doing stuff today but i'm PROCRASTINATING omg. ): 12 hours till the very last book in to tekong! ): there's so much i want to do after POP but there's so little time (as usual)! besides revamping my room and doing the whole driving lessons/TP thing (YAY finally!), i want to..

1. do light painting!
2. do a photoshoot!
3. visit MI!
4. go back to AFTC (:
5. blah blah blah.. probably there but kinda lazy to think about it -_-

probably also cause i should get my ass down to work! baiii.